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The Power of Acknowledgement

by limitlesslaura

”There are two things people want more than sex and money..

– recognition and praise.”

–Mary Kay Ash


I’ll start off by saying that Mary Kay Ash is one of my heroes. No, I am not a Mary Kay consultant, although I got my start in the Direct Sales Industry with her company, back in 1983, and have family that is still with her today! That says a lot about the two women in my family who stuck with her.

I ReTweeted a wonderful tweet the other day from a great though leader that read:

@GaryLoper RT “Try to tell at least 5 special people that they matter to support the #YouMatter movement! “

Of course I added my joyful reply and my day was made! I proceeded to secretly go around to 5 people I know and let them know that they are important to me.

The whole process took a little time, because I made a card for one, had a phone conversation with another, and wrote messages to the other 3. I did not do anything outwardly sappy, but I let these people know that they are making a difference that impacts my life and the world.

Have you ever thought about the basic human need that we all have to be recognized and acknowledged? Jeffrey Combs says “Babies cry for it and men die for it”. It is really true. A little baby will cry in their bassinet for 15 minutes until mom or dad picks her or him up to love, change or feed them. Sometimes it’s not even that a need is there to be met, but that of LOVE. It starts there. [click to continue…]


When was the last time you felt that SPARK, like your life was on fire and your personal “mojo” was so “on” you could create magic, and awesomeness with everything you touched? When was the last time you spent the day doing absolutely everything you wanted, and everything went like someone was following you around with magic fairy dust preparing your day to go exactly the way you dreamed or even better? This is called being in the zone, flow, being in the vortex, connected to source, or in the field of intention. I like to say I’m in flow.

All of us have times when we can slip into mediocrity..but to live our dreams we must never settle for it!!

Being in flow is the opposite of mediocrity, it’s the place where your point of attraction lies, where the subconscious mind meets your Higher Power, Source Energy, or God.  It is in this place where the decisions you make to become all of who you are, become realized. There is no small thought here, or even a whiff of mediocrity.

We all get those slumpy, slightly stuck times. Sometimes it’s the result of a simple lack of creativity, and other times it can be something much greater, like a full on life slump, with depression, fatigue, and “the blahs”.  What can you do to snap out of it and move into fabulousness? How do you get that magic fairy dust back in your life? It’s much easier than you think.

6 Ways to Go from Mediocrity to Magic

1. RISK What have you been DREADING? What’s that one thing you’ve been procrastinating, and in your heart you know the accomplishment will advance you personally and thereby professionally? There’s nothing like jumping in the pool when you can barely swim, are afraid, or in this case might be a little rusty at it. I don’t know WHAT my mother was thinking, but when I was 4 years old she enrolled me in one of those swim schools! I vaguely remember being thrown in the pool, but I remember more vividly being out on the ocean on our sailboat at a very young age and feeling safe, because I knew how to swim. You KNOW what it is..JUST DO IT.

2. STOP SETTLING Do you stand up for what’s right? Do you stand up for yourself? If you feel you have not gotten the proper service in a store or restaurant, are you vocal, and do you go to the manager? When you settle on the little things in life, you tend to settle on the big ones too.  If this sounds like you, you might not even know you’ve been doing it. It’s about your self-worth. You must, must, must, view yourself as the MAGNIFICENT person that you are!

3. EXCHANGE MEDIOCRE for MAGICAL- So many people are out there living plain, drab lives that they hate. They are just getting up every morning and “going through the motions”, going to work and “getting through the day” and coming home to “zone out” in front of the cable tv, 24/7, 365, year after year. These are the complacent people who deserve A SHOCK to their system. Watch this short video. Many of them didn’t start out this way. At one time they had big dreams, an open mind, and a twinkle in their eye. By making a decision to redesign your life, become all that you are, and fulfill your dreams, you are saying NO to mediocrity forever. To take it one step further, reach out to these people and SHOW THEM the WAY! Your life will IGNITE with inspiration and magic, simply by the Law of Attraction.

4.DECIDE & DECLARE! to live the life of your dreams, even if you’re not there yet! The latin root of the word decide means “to cut off”. You are cutting off any other possibility of how you want your life to look. If you are TRULY SERIOUS (down to your toes) about the decision, what starts to happen is uncanny. Not only will you begin to be pulled away from mediocrity, but everything that’s part of your positive decision begins to be drawn toward you as if by MAGIC. Sometimes it really seems magical, and the more you believe, the more magical it gets! A true declaration to The Universe says “I mean business”, and I believe. The Universe conspires to rearrange itself to fit the pictures in your mind.

5.GET ON PURPOSE Do you know what your purpose is? It’s a pretty important thing to know, and if you don’t know it, you can get buried in a pile of distractions, going in circles, because you have no clear direction or reason for doing what you love most. If you are not at the point of getting to do what you love for a living, at the minimum, know what’s most important to you, where you are going and the reasons you’re going there. There is no greater SPARK than a big purpose that’s driving you!

6. STEP INTO YOUR POWER Everyone has an unlimited supply of personal power. If you’re in a slump, the switch is off! Many people are giving their power away.. to their kids, to the media, to their co-workers, and their business associates. I know it does not make any sense, but why would you do that? I promise you that there is no greater demonstration of this life “magic” than for you to take a leap of faith and flip the switch! TAKE OWNERSHIP of YOUR GREATNESS Just do it and step into your power. Stop allowing what you don’t want, and create what you DO WANT!

Mediocrity is a decision, so make the new decision to abolish it! If you are not dealing with mediocrity, assist someone you know that is struggling with it. Inspire people to know what you know!! Life is a wonder and a sheer miracle. You have the power!

I would love to know what you think! Please leave me a comment below!


I have to say I LOVE this concept and this show. It’s revolutionary in that there’s no prize, `and nothing to win but changing lives and making something out of nothing. My husband Larry and I are both big, unconventional, out of the box thinkers,  which is why we got hooked on the Live Feed on Day Two. If you are a big thinker or a “change the world” kind of person, Get the Free Live Feed Here (I don’t make anything off it)

The beautiful land of Utopia is beginning to settle down as the pioneers are learning to get along and work together for the common good. As of the last post, Rhonda and Kristen had arrived and were working very hard at integrating, but each with their own style. Kristen’s Entrepreneurial skills won out in the end. Rhonda had spent quite a bit of time with the cows and chickens, had a run in with a few Utopians, and perhaps ruffled a few feathers. Ultimately, her experience in the Military, as a 23 year business owner, and as a political activist would have served Utopia well too, but that’s just me rooting for Rhonda. I totally respect the decision of the group.

Pastor Jon was seen for an injury that occurred week one to his thumb, and it was found to need surgery. Everyone was quite sad for Jonathon to leave for 6 to 8 weeks, as he made a lasting impression on everyone. I think it surprised him. He got to perform 2 baptisms, and share his ministry without pushing it on anyone. The Utopians that were touched by his laid back style the most in my opinion were Rob and Hex.

Then there was this. It appears Pastor Jon was very uncomfortable about Bri and Chris having sex against the wall he had his back to! Uh yeah!


The girls held another Goddess circle and Belly Dancing class.I think they really bond and enjoy it. Amanda is the only one who does not attend. Bella continued to be Bella, with more meltdowns, and gardening feverishly to grow sustainable food for everyone. She seems determined to prove that her keyhole gardens are the best way to grow veggies, fruit and herbs. She’s passionate about her beliefs and I totally respect her fire. She is emotional, but wow eccentric, and visionary too. Speaking of food, Nikki and Red worked hard on a food order, and she continued to whine about being hungry which was at the displeasure of Aaron the chef.

Man those guys worked their fool asses off getting the water and gas working. It was interesting how the gardening people thought that they were working harder. The barn folk too. So it goes. The gas got hooked up, which got the stove working, as well as the fireplaces. The showers and toilet were also something Rob and Josh were very proud of. An inspector came out and everything passed.

Cooking became more “Utopian” for Aaron to be sure! Then just when everyone was getting super sick pf beans and sweet potatoes, a new Utopian shows up carrying Rib Eye steaks for all! I will leave it to see on the show but lets just say he is a hottie!

Lefty the Farmer came out to give a TON of good advice to the Utopians about the animals. He talked to them for a long time about how to care for the cows, chickens, garden and generally keep going in Utopia if they wanted to live off the land. He gave them so much info and I didn’t see anyone take notes.He will be available to them I believe. What a wonderful man with a treasure trove of farming and ranching knowledge. Red probably knows a lot of it if they would listen to him.

Twitter blew up yesterday (9-13) about the care of the animals. Others tweeted all kinds of stuff about how the animals were not being cared for properly. In defense of us Live Feeders, we see what we see and Tweet questions. It’s hard out here not to comment. That’s how a fan base is built right? Loyal fans will be true as we watch the feeds and and grow invested in these people and their SUCCESS.  The animals would never be in danger. The producers would not let that happen. They have a vet monitoring the animals, who came out yesterday, schooled the whole group into reality.

Lots, Lots, Lots more happened that involved the guys getting silly and making me laugh so hard my stomach hurt!! Red doing what he does BEST, and the Utopians beginning to the next level in a big way.

I can’t wait to see what happens between this new person and another girl who I won’t mention!!

If you are a Live Feed Watcher, Please leave a comment!

If you are new to Utopia, what are your thoughts on this concept> Please Leave a comment!

Watch Utopia on Tuesdays and Fridays on Fox at 8/7 central or check your listings.

Videos courtesy of @UtopiaMadness (no affiliation)






There are only a handful of events in our lives that we can say to each other “Where were you when? If you are a Baby Boomer you can ask your parents or grandparents, Where were you when..

The stock market crashed in 1929

Pearl Harbor was attacked

JFK was shot

My mother tells of the day John F Kennedy was shot. We were driving down the street on a typical day in Los Angeles. She had picked me up from Nursery School, and had just gotten off work. She said that everyone on the streets were stopping their cars, and she didn’t know why. She thought it was a dignitary about to come down the boulevard or something. My older sister was in the car, and said, “Mom you should turn on the radio”. That was when they learned the President of the United States had been shot and killed. My mom found the closest church, and took us in to light candles. We weren’t catholic, but it was all she could think to do at the time. we sat there for a long time she said. I was only 4, so I barely remember this.

Bobby Kennedy was shot

When Bobby Kennedy was shot, it was like the world had going crazy by then. My best friend’s mother at the time was a campaign worker for Bobby, and was at The Ambassador hotel the night he was shot. She was only a few feet away in the hotel kitchen when it happened. My friend’s mother would not speak of it for years.

Martin Luther King was shot

Richard Nixon resigned from office

All these event reshaped our lives, our thinking, and the destiny of our country. How would things have been different if President Kennedy had never been shot?

or more recently in history

The explosion of The Space Shuttle Challenger in 1986

The attack on the Twin Towers at The World Trade Center in New York City September 11, 2001. I would imagine that everyone can tell you exactly where they were and what they were doing. You can probably remember in vivid detail where you were sitting, and what you were doing when you saw it on tv or when someone called you to tell you about it.

Larry and I were at a breakfast meeting at a local Marie Callander’s. I didn’t even know they had televisions there. The waitress came in and interrupted our meeting of 20 people to announce that a plane had flown into the side of the World Trade Center. Everything was suspended animation after that. Cell phones were only ringing for about 10 minutes, then the lines were jammed. Some people left, and others stayed glued around the tv at the restaurant. Larry and I decided to sit tight there. It was surreal for the following 3 hours, and you know the rest of the story.

Our country was never the same after that day. Our sense of safety was changed forever.The 3000+ people who lost their lives will always be remembered not just on 9-11 but every day. They’ll be remembered by some as heroes, but by others as casualties of  poor National Security. Period. Those people should have never died, and 9-11 should have never happened in the first place. Sure I could write some flowery article about America the Beautiful blah blah blah.. but those people and their families were devastated. America was left wide open for this attack, and it should have never happened. The wars started in Iraq were started to find “weapons of mass destruction” and loosely connected to 9-11. It was always very questionable whether our presence over there was necessary.

When I think of where I was the day those planes flew into those towers, I know in my heart that it was the day America changed forever. There was no turning back. Those terrorist took from us something we will have a very hard time recovering. Peace of Mind. If we truly want to honor the firemen who died, the people in the towers, the pilots on flight 93, and all the other casualties in Iraq and anywhere else connected with 9-11 we need to ask the questions they want asked, open the stories that want to stay closed, and pray for the peace of mind we once had, in their names.




Attn Utopia Fans: Spoilers Ahead.

As a fan of  shows like Survivor, Big Brother, Project Runway, Masterchef and Top Chef, I was excited to see the launch of the new Fox show Utopia. After watching the live feeds for 11 days now, and the premiere of the show on Fox TV last night, there’s  no doubt in my mind, that Utopia has the opportunity to make television history.  Utopia clearly offers its once in a lifetime opportunity to the “pioneers” the opportunity to make human history as well. Don’t you just feel a but coming on? I’m just not sure a few factors will allow a real difference to be made.

The premise is to create something out of nothing essentially, and make a society up as you would want it to be. It is a glorious ideology, that seems perfect in its conception, but the people brought on to the show were so carefully selected, or “cast” just like in a movie, that it is almost too perfect. Hmmm almost utopian like? I had such high hopes the first few days, and I still do as I am still mesmerised. I was extremely excited because I thought that this show was on to something BIG. These Utopians could help not only each other, but new people coming in possibly, as well as viewers. There were a few hints dropped here and there, especially by Red, if you paid close attention suggesting this “casting” aspect, but I got over it.

The only Utopians I see on the show who are truly interested in helping others before themselves are Jonathon the minister,  Nikki the Yoga instructor, Aaron the chef and Amanda the behavior specialist. The rest of the group has been so focused on getting their own agenda across, or hiding behind someone else’s. There have been a LOT of fights, bickering and discontent. It’s been surprising to me that these people have not established some guidelines or committees to get things done. At the minimum, they should have a finance committee to oversee the money. So far the decisions have been inconsistent, sometimes unilateral, and even unfair to certain people. Is that Utopian? Maybe.

The opportunity to affect lives in Utopia is monumental. It happened on day two, with Hex admitting to a drinking problem, and Josh being put on 90 day sobriety probation for his drunken fiasco on the first night. There are no telling the countless people that were helped out in TV land and on the Internet by Hex and Josh, as well as THE GROUP, taking the correct nurturing supportive but stern action.

Fast forward to day 10 when Dave the ex-con returns to Utopia to be baptized after self evicting, and being voted to return only for that purpose. The baptism was peaceful and moving, as well as Pastor Jon’s impact on the vast audience, again having a huge impact no doubt. There’s no telling how many people got saved into Christianity because of Dave Green and Sunday’s story on the feeds. When it airs on Fox, it’s sure to be a tear jerker that will bring more people to Christ. I am not a religious person, but a spiritual one, and what happened there, was meant to be. There was more at work than just a simple baptism.

Nikki, Red and the Pastor have been working to get Dave back on Utopia. Nikki proposed a rehabilitation/probation program. It was almost shocking how strongly Rob and Josh (pot calling the kettle) so vehemently opposed even the suggestion of anything of the sort!! Nikki fought hard for a couple of hours, and was in tears. My heart broke for her, but even more for Dave Green.

Here we have this new reality show that has a chance to make a significant difference on television. Production can guide things any way they want it to go down. This man needs love, patience and kindness, He needs a family. A real breakthrough is standing before not only the Utopians, but the “powers that be” behind the fences at Utopia. If you want this show to stand out as the reality show that changes TV, loosen up on the casting aspect, and guide these people a little on how to help someone like Dave. Sending him out into the world sends a bad message to all the “fuck you and forget you’ streeted guys out there and their families. I don’t think it will look good. Aaron stood up for him, as did Amanda and Nikki. I really hope it does not look like a bunch of Yuppis not wanting to “deal” with someone who made them very uncomfortable. Just saying.


Week One in Utopia

by limitlesslaura

Attn Utopian Fans: Spoilers Ahead

The new Fox TV Show, and Social Experiment Utopia on Fox began on August 31 with a bang. After 7 long days, though this beautiful place has seen much progress, there were many bumps along the way. Considering what they had to work with I think they weathered it pretty well. The concept is unique in that it is a true reality show in every sense of the word. the cameras are only there to be a window into what happens. There are no crews, so everything is as you see it go down.


The potential for these people to create miraculous results is LIMITLESS, which is why I am so interested in following and blogging along the way. I think each person brings unique gifts and talents. I also think we will get an objective view of what we do as a society, and how we can make it better. I truly believe their hearts are in the right place and they want to “create a MIRACLE”,as it says on the wall of the barn in chalk.

15 Utopians embarked on their new journey, with great excitement. and landed on the beautiful ranch grounds to begin socializing. The alcohol was flowing, and chaos ensued by the end of the night between several of the Utopians. Dave and Josh got into a fight during the late evening, which hit Twitter almost immediately. The feeds were cut, so all that we saw was a short gif. Tune in to the premiere of Utopia on Fox on Sunday September 7, and you might see a bit what happened. It was high drama for a few minutes. Hex was involved, getting extremely drunk, and dehydrated the next day. The first hospital trip of Utopia took her to Henry Mayo in Valencia, California where she received  fluids and returned to camp.

The other more passive and peaceful Utopians were shaken by the first night, and had enough to deal with having to find cotton bails to make beds, something to eat, and begin putting together a camp the next day. Decisions had to be made about conduct, discipline and appropriate actions in Utopia. Not exactly paradise out the gate.



Everyone chilled and began hanging out by the gorgeous clear waterfall on the hot days. Some were skinny dipping, and others were a little tentative to go all the way “au natural”. Jobs were continued to be divided, like caring for the animals, beginning to figure out food, planting a garden, and building out the empty barn to do what with they will. It will take some time for the power struggles to settle down most definitely.Getting to know each other a little more calmly went forward too.


Several of the ladies clicked quite well, and began dividing up work duties. Most got along quite well, and even met for a Goddess Circle with Nikki the yoga instructor and evening  Yoga classes with Aaron, Hex, Bri , Chris and Josh. Romance bloomed between Chris and Bri from night one. Bri’s passions could not be contained, and their sexual desires were unleashed all over the camp, literally! Bella has a sensitive, delicate personality, which has much to contribute, but has also melted down at least 6 times since she got there. Hex is a tough cookie that takes NO SHIT from anyone. She provokes shit at times, which gets her in trouble, but she’s also valuable to the group for hunting, working and her strength. Rob is an all around tough person, a bold personality as well who will work all day. He won’t take shit either.  Mike the attorney has been lending critical thinking, planning, decision making and physical labor. Josh got a VERY rocky start. He vowed to stay away from alcohol for 90 days, and brings tremendous value for his general construction skills.

Chris is a glass blower, and chile specialist. He plays the guitar, and can offer entertainment. Bri is a veterinarian student, which has been of  huge value for the animals. She is the youngest and has some respect issues in my opinion, but that’s only because she’s 19 years old.



Aaron being a trained chef was doing all the meals and ordered healthy grains and some veggies from a designated grocer, along with a few items people requested. When the process was being done, Red and Dave felt unheard, and started having a fit, destroying cans of perfectly good food in the barn. Mike the attorney threatened to throw some of the food away out of pure anger and frustration which is partly what set them off..

The next day Dave and Red decided to place an order of their own to the grocer, of less health processed foods like chips, soda, hot dogs and the infamous BANANAS. When the others asked to eat some they selectively shared with only those who were “nice” to them (or from what I gathered) The food ordeal carried on into the next two days, creating a victim story by the two of them. Everyone was getting tired of hearing the negativity. By the same token, they felt misunderstood, and it was a big mess.



Meanwhile tons of good progress was made in the garden by Nikki,  Bella. Bri and Amanda  while Rob, Bri, Red  and Dedeker were taking good care of the cows and chickens, and milking the cow. Dedeker became “the cheese lady” creating her own process for cheese.



Everyone was coming up with ideas to make money. The barn was coming along, and necessities like a toilet, refrigerator, stove, plywood, and plumbing were all ordered. Electricity came on night three which was a blessing because they had been operating with little light. The bathroom was headed up by Josh, but Rob, Chris, and Mike helped bang it out fast.

Two new Utopians arrived on day 8. Rhonda, with tons of all around experience, and Kristen an entrepreneur. They integrated very quickly and had a great first day.The only sad note was Dave’s decision to opt out on Day 8 after dinner, over the “Banana Gate” issue, but it really had to do with something much deeper. I don’t think he felt a part of the group, and I don’t think the group could deal with his personality. He was starting to make progress with Rhonda today, but clashed with Hex tonight, and chose to leave for good.

All in all it has been a wonderful first week. Utopia premieres on Fox with a 2 hour show Sunday September 7.



Over the past 5 months I have been learning how to manage pain in a whole new way. It’s completely changed my life, and my outlook on health. Pharmaceuticals can only do so much. After a while pain medication can stop giving the body the originally intended benefit, and actually cause more harm than good. I found that my pain receptors were shot, and pain to me is ten times what it would be to a normal person.



My nervous system is like a circuit board that has gone haywire. Being introduced to Mindfulness as a way of pain management, along with breathing exercises and physical therapy has allowed me to slowly taper off the pain medication and I am already half way there. I am feeling so very much better.

Mindfulness is relatively simple concept that can yield extremely powerful results. One of the foremost authors on the subject of mindfulness,

Jon Kabat-Zinn, says :

“Mindfulness means paying attention in a particular way:

On purpose, in the present moment, and non-judgementally.”

What I am learning through mindfulness practice is how to be here, and only here, fully present. I notice myself wanting to worry about the future, and just bring my awareness back to right now. I notice thoughts about the past, and how I could have been better, but it’s just a thought, and I let it pass by. Very cool. Now I’m not saying that I never worry or think about the past, but mindfulness has helped me tremendously with feeling anxious, and depression.

Here is another explanation:

“Mindfulness means deliberately attending to and becoming more aware of our experience: our thoughts, feelings and body sensations. This allows us to clearly perceive thoughts, physical sensations, emotions and events at the moment they occur without reacting in an automatic or habitual way. Experiences don’t overwhelm us and we become steady through life’s ups and downs.”
Founder of Breatheworks
where her site says:
“The Breathworks approach to Mindfulness-Based Pain Management (MBPM) is the most comprehensive, in-depth, scientifically up-to-date and user-friendly approach to learning the how of living with chronic pain and reclaiming one’s life that I know of…..I admire Vidyamala tremendously… her approach could save your life and give it back to you.”
Jon Kabat-Zinn, PhD author of Full Catastrophe Living and Coming to Our Senses Professor Emeritus of the University of Massachusetts Medical School.

As for my pain management, the psychologist I see uses the same program developed by Jon Kabat-Zinn, and has done some mindfulness exercises with me, in his office that have really helped me calm my pain down. He recorded them so I can listen any time. One is a Body Scan, which takes you through each part of the body very slowly, but in a specific way. Jon Kabat-Zinn is the authority and pioneer in this field. His books are very good, like Full Catastrophe Living and Wherever You Go, There You Are. Look him up on You Tube and Amazon.

Meditation and more specifically Buddhism, Yoga, TM, and other types of spiritual practice is also mindfulness practice, so it’s by no means new, and in fact thousands of years old. Allowing your mind to quiet, being still and going within is the first step. There’s noting to do believe it or not. Just sit, be still and allow thoughts to pass, allow peace to come, Allow God to speak to you. It’s amazing.

Pain can be diminished greatly by taking focus to present moment awareness, and simply breathing. My physical therapist showed me this video about

Simple Diaphramatic Breathing

As you see the diaphram is free moving, gently expanding and contracting. It’s separate from the lungs, and can be very beneficial in helping the body to relax. As it pertains to mindfulness, when you concentrate on the diaphram going up and down inside your body, and picture it suspended like this video, breathing becomes focused, and more calming,very quickly, the blood pressure can go down, pain and stress can be reduced as well.

I am JUST learning this stuff, so this is a very basic overview, and if you want to learn more I would recommend a few things. First off, if you have any kind of chronic condition, this works wonders, so ask your doctor for a referral to a local therapist or mindfulness program in your area, if you don’t go to one already, and ask about mindfulness exercises. They will know.

Some great mindfulness resources are:

Any book or video by Jon Kabat Zinn


Finding Peace in a Frantic World

That should get you started. It does not take much as it it extremely easy and very simple. You will love it.



The day Robin Williams died was a teaching moment. When I heard it was due to suicide and severe depression it was like a knife to the heart. Immediate emotions flooded my body, and I could not hold back tears for over an hour. Why was I taking this so hard? This man was like a touchstone to me from the 70’s on. I can’t think of any comedian/actor that was more creative, filled more lives with joy, and gave of his heart so fully around the world more than Robin Williams. For almost 40 years he was an institution in our lives.

The life of Robin Williams taught me many things about thinking WAY outside the box! I adored his wackiness like no other, combined with a gentle soul that always shined through. I was always impressed that Robin dedicated his personal time to entertaining troops, doing 6 USO tours in Iraq and Afghanistan, Germany, Kuwait and other countries to entertain more than 89,000 service men and women in his time there. Robin got to know many of the military personnel very well, and made a point of shaking hands and getting to know a little something about as many soldiers as he possibly could. He sat at the bedsides of wounded warriors, undoubtedly relating on a level we can only imagine.

I understood his deep, deep sadness. I have no idea what being a major celebrity is like, but I could imagine the pressure is overwhelming. The moment they said severe depression, coupled with anxiety, I knew the kind of pain he perhaps felt, to want to take his own life. Describing my own experience is in no way meant to diminish the tragedy of Robin Williams death or disrespect the privacy of his family.

How I would describe Anxiety & Depression:

“It  feels like an inescapable quicksand that keeps pulling you further and further down each day, and darkness that feels like you are in a room with no windows, no doors, no keys to get out, and no way of ever getting light. It’s like you want to run from a room for no reason, or you feel creepy crawly feelings all over, nerves, tenseness, unexplainable pain and extreme uneasiness. Once I described it to a doctor as wanting to tear off my skin, run out of the house and go screaming down the street. That’s anxiety and depression.”

Clinical Depression is Biological

I have always been about unconditional love, breaking through  limits, acceptance, and overflowing positivity. I consider myself a pretty positive lady, and most people do as well. I have fought fibromyalgia all my adult life, and dealt with clinical (severe) depression at times of my life. I fight it, and I just don’t talk about it. The mistake I have made is not getting the proper help with psychology or pain management. Personal development and my spirituality have strengthened me greatly, but when it’s an imbalance in the brain, biology takes over.

As I grieved for Robin, my tears were for him, but they were also for all the people out there who have either ended their own life. or walk that delicate tightrope emotionally, either with mental illness, addiction, a critical injury, illness like cancer, accident, or a chronic condition. Many people living with serious conditions, develop severe depression. Robin Williams had Parkinson’s Disease as we found out.

My husband Larry knew something was very wrong when I went from being an active blogger and hard working entrepreneur to not answering any email, going on Facebook, Twitter, anything from May 2013 to February 2014. My body hurt all over,  and felt like it weighed 1000lbs when I got up to walk. I knew intuitively all the things I was supposed to be doing to get well, but, all I could think about was death, suicide and wanting to die. Straight up.

By March I was starting to come out of this fog with the help of a Pain Management program at a local University. It’s been very important to be monitored closely.  Every day I get a little better, and concentrate on one day feeling like the me I KNOW I AM. Does that make sense? Mindfulness meditation, guided imagery and staying in the present moment has been the best tool I’ve found so far to feel good. Decompressing from the Internet was a big one for me. I never knew how much stress being online constantly had caused me. Taking in the simple moments, without judgement, and just being has been very healing.

The Stigma associated with Depression

I think the stigma of mental illness stems from FEAR. It’s natural, however, that’s only because society has buried a lot of this stuff just slightly under the surface that, we just don’t talk about it. It’s mentioned on the news, people and families deal with it all the time, but still don’t feel accepted, or there wouldn’t be a stigma in my opinion.

This stigma must stop, because it’s preventing people from getting the help they so desperately need. There are slowly armies building to speak out and talk about their own mental health.

Just imagine if mental illness had the national support around it that  ALS, Parkinson’s,  Breast cancer, MS or Heart Disease did. Friends with depression would ask for help more readily, and the suicide rates would go down.

*Go to this site and take this questionaire if anything I’ve described seems familiar. Then see your doctor. Never be alone if at all possible when you are going through something like this.

If you or someone you know is seriously depressed, get help. Call the National Suicide Prevention Line 800-273-8255

My blog will be dedicated to Robin Williams soon, and have a mental health section. Please help to end the stigma.

A video tribute I found about death..that Robin Williams and Carol Burnett did. Only you could  help us find humor in losing you..and remembering you simultaneously


Turning Your Focus to Mindset

by limitlesslaura



Recently I had the awakening of a lifetime! I had the great pleasure of be willing to take a good long hard look at myself, get vulnerably honest, speak the truth and tell myself what was not working with my mindset. When I got to the answers, I came up with this: YOU (me) need to FOCUS on MINDSET (like very seriously). The success you have in life is directly proportionate to the size of your personal  growth!!

Last December after much soul searching,  I came to the conclusion  that I had neglected my mindset, self talk, and the role that my  inner view of myself played in my life. I took a look at what was my “why”, my purpose, and my greater overall vision and picture I see for  myself. I asked the toughies like:  Where am I going? Where am I taking others? If I didn’t KNOW FOR SURE…How would others want to come along?

Positive Mindset In = Positive Mindset Out!

What came about was magnificent!! I focused on my mindset very intensely. I made my own personal growth and development almost like a “classroom” atmosphere, in my head, my heart, and my home. I got out my favorite books, some blank journals, stuff to create dream boards, index cards, markers, audios, and even cancelled the tv service for a time. The only things I watched were You Tube videos that pertained to my mindset and self-development. The only things I listened to were Inner Circle audios, Anthony Robbins, Wayne Dyer, Jack Canfield, Esther Hicks, and others.

I took the cards and wrote my goals and placed the all over the house! It looked a little silly around her when guests came over, but they know  when I put my mind to something, I don’t mess around! For the next 90 days it has been like concentrated mindset BELIEF tank in this house. Nothing goes in that is not positive.

Results are the Only Way You Know Your Mindset Has Changed

My business is flourishing! I have great things happening all around me!! I have earned more in one month than I ever have in my online business. People are excited, and all kinds of abundance is flowing. Good things are springing up from all around!

Does that mean I have slowed down on personal development because I am achieving results? NO WAY! In fact, I have increased it. We attended an event recently, and listened to some of the top earners in our company. The thread that went through all of their talks, was that they are spending at least 2 hours a day on reading and personal development.

Just as important as feeding the information in, is getting still, and listen for quiet answers that will come.

It all a decision, and the material to feed into your brain is available. Reach out for it and start feeding it to yourself.




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